Finding Me...

Lately I've been doing some reflecting! Thinking about who and what I am. Contemplating where I want to go and what I will accomplish when I get there but, all the roads to the future seem blurry. So, I set out on a different journey, one into the past, to compare and contrast my thoughts, the now vs the then. I've found that there were things I believed then that somehow, I still believe now. Like my dark skin, my big lips, the gap in between my teeth, my curvy frame, not being attractive all of which I was teased about as a child and young adult. All of which, I hated and began to tell myself different stories, like "nobody likes dark skin women", "you're teeth have to be straight for you to be pretty", "you gotta lose weight Sis"< "you're lips are too big to wear lipstick"... the list goes on, but I'm resting in a place where I am ready to undo all of the things I say/said to myself, and erase all the things other people told me. In this rest of discovery, I am uncovering me and deciding to go against the grain of every negative thought or word that has been passed to me or that I passed between my own ears.... Here's to Finding ME.

i have a Gap

in between the two villages planted

into the ride of my month

rests a gate.

it's hinges broken,

it's arms open

to welcome whatever may come then

expel the contents of deliverance.

it's where the villagers

sort their lies

and hide their truths.

it's the awkward display

strangers pass and find themselves beautiful,

it's the presence of poverty

lounging in plain sight,

it's the sentence of loneliness and

the reward of silence after dusk.

it's the harvest of sin

and the open redemption of faith.

its the place of acceptance

if only,

i could find it in the mirror.